Monday, September 1, 2008

Life is pretty routine right now. I am still working on the grounds crew at BYUI. I work from 8-5 Monday through Friday and after work I usually hang out with my very good friend Amy. I have really come to love my job. The people I work with are so amazing. They are the most humble, fun loving, hilarious group of people I have met while up at school. Most of my co-workers are married but I get along with all of them really well. One of my best friends on the crew is 27 and she is married (haha). These people are incredible. I wasn't expecting it, but I love this job just because I love the people that are around me. Unfortunately, I have to quit work this week because in order to work for BYUI you have to be taking 12 credits. I am going to start working at a law firm here in town that specializes in repairing credit, my training will be within the next 2 weeks. I'm going to miss my co-workers, but its actually getting too cold for me to work on the grounds in the morning. It was 37 degrees when I went to work on Wednesday. I was wearing 5 layers and I was frozen! I am going to die in the winter! haha
My friends are starting to trickle back into Rexburg. It is SO exciting! Last week my buddy Derik got back into town. We have been spending a ton of time together. Today my roommate Katie gets back! I AM SO EXCITED! She was my best friend during the summer. OH, and tomorrow, one of my best friends from home is getting in! It's so happy! haha Fall is going to be awesome! I love it here!
DATING, OH DATING....I'm at a really weird stage in my dating life. I want to date because I like boys and they like me (haha) But, I also don't want to date because I hate all the effort, the drama, and I hate that I end up feeling like I never meant anything to the guys I date. Oh well, life goes on and I'm not sad - just tired of it.
I'm really glad that everyone is coming back for school. It is going to be nice to have a tiny town with people in it rather than a tiny town with no one in it haha The past 7 weeks have been weird, but I enjoyed them. I got really close to my friend Amy and I got to work with amazing people. I even dated. It has been good but I am so happy that school is starting.
I hope everyone is doing well! I love you all!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Well, a lot has happened since the last time I blogged! I am going to keep it short though...James. I went to visit James in Montana. We had a great time. We were getting really close. James continued to say that we were going to get married in Winter etc etc. I got home from Montana on a Sunday night. The following day (Monday) James and I talked he said that he thought it would be better for both of us if we didn't do the long distance thing. I agreed, but I was actually very upset. Here is the thing about me though, I don't let my heart stay broken. I pick up all the pieces and move on. That night (Monday) I went to the gym on campus and saw a really REALLY cute guy from my ward and he was totally checking me out. I went to the gym Tuesday, that same boy...checking me out...and he came over and talked to me for a bit. Wednesday, I went to the gym, the boy in my ward (Ryan) was checking me out again (haha) then he came and laid on the mats next to me while I was doing ab exercises. We got talking and he ended up inviting me over to his apartment. He was very cool, easy going, OH and he put his arm around me (woosh, fast mover haha). Thursday, we went star gazing and that was SO neat. I saw at least 10 shooting stars. Friday, we watched a movie and he said that we were dating. I went from being heart broken to having the hottest boy in Rexburg (for now haha).
That Friday I picked my mom up from the airport and we drove to Las Vegas. It was SO nice to be home. There is a feeling that I get around my family that I haven't been able to feel since I had seen them. It may have been gas (haha), but I think it was just safety and unconditional love. I had really missed them. That whole week was amazing.
The night that my mom and I got into town, we went and picked up our copies of Breaking Dawn. OH MY GOSH! AMAZING! I am literally obsessed. I have major problems. I was crying during parts of the book, laughing, giggling, screaming. Ok, you get the point. The characters have really become like my best friends. AAA - I am such a wierdy! But, Bella is my age and I feel like I can understand her and holy cow...HOLY COW! I am in love with Edward. The series ended so perfectly and I am so glad that Stephenie Meyer wrote those books. The story is absolutely incredible!
Back to the real world...actually Twilight exists - in my heart HAHA...we went to the beach and went camping with my grandparents and aunt (what an adventure). In a nut shell there was sun, sleeping in the back of a car in a Wal-Mart parking lot, getting kicked out of a Wal-Mart parking lot, crying Koreans, 100 degree sleeping conditions, sleeping underneath an underpass, sun, FOOD FOOD FOOD, and then we came home haha. It was amazing! That week went by so fast. I got to visit my two best friends, Daniela and Nikki. That was so fun! They are awesome! But, I really wish I would've had more time with my family. I love that family of mine! They are so great!
I'm back in Rexburg now. I'm working for the grounds crew at BYU-I! It has been very hard on me. I am a city girl not a landscaper haha. I have been struggling a lot lately. I feel like I have goals and places to be going in life, but I am at a stand still. I can't go to school in the fall because I'm "off-track" which means I am not getting any closer to a degree. I can work, but I am having a really hard time finding a good job. I can date, but I have lost the desire to date...totally not like me...but for some reason I just don't think it's very important to me right now. I want to get an education and prepare myself for marriage, but I don't want to be on the prowl all the time (haha). Oh, that reminds me, things didn't work out with that guy Ryan in my ward - oh well!
I am going to continue to live righteously and try to follow the path that Heavenly Father would have me walk, but I think I am hitting some bumps in my road. Trials are meant to make us stronger and bring us closer to our Savior so as I am facing this time in my life and I going to strive to be worthy of His help.
I love you all! I miss you! Thanks for all you have done and are doing for me!

Saturday, June 28, 2008

What is Up!

Hey everyone! Sorry it has taken me so long to update my blog, but it really just means that I have been so busy and having so much fun!
The first weekend I was here in Rexburg I performed in the Broadway Revue. It was a show full of songs from different musicals. I sang The New World from Songs for a New World. The show had a souncheck 3 hours before the actual performance and when I walked in there was really cute guy doing some tech work. We got talking and I thought he was awesome. During the sound check I gestered for him to come talk to me and when he came over I said "Hey do you have a girlfriend?" and he said "no" and I replied "Well, you should take me on a date." He was really stunned but got my number AND to my surprise he text me right after the show and asked if I wanted to go out! I was really attracted to him and we had a great time that night. We continued to go on dates and I was having a great time, but something was missing. I just didn't think he was the guy for me. Chris (thats the boy) and I had been dating for about 3 weeks when I started to worry that he was WAY more interested in me than I was in him. So we spent the evening together on Wednesday this week and I broke things off. I feel really bad and it has been harder for me than I expected. It was nice to have someone there, someone to talk to, someone that really really liked me (haha). It was the right thing to do though. So that has been my dating adventure for the past little while.
My roommates are the COOLEST! I really got so very blessed! I feel so comfortable with them! They make me feel loved and accepted and they are all very good girls! I was planning on being at home in the Fall and attending UNLV but I've thought about it long and hard and I cannot go to UNLV after being in Idaho! There is no comparison - BYUI is the best EVER! I am going to stay in Idaho for the Fall. I am going to take a few night classes and work during the day! I'm going to live with 3 of my same roommates; Katie, Georgie, and Betsy! I LOVE THEM!
I got homesick for the first time this week (lol) I didn't cry or anything, but we were talking about gambling in my math class and it made me miss Las Vegas - too funny!
My testimony has grown so much lately! The church is true! Our Heavenly Father has a plan for each of us and if we live righteously blessings that we cannot imagine will be poured out upon us. I know that my Redeemer lives! I know this is His restored gospel on the Earth!
I hope all is well! I miss you all and love you!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

BYU Idaho

I'm here! Finally, I'm here! It is everything I anticipated and so much more! I have the most amazing roommates I could ask for, my apartment is GORGEOUS, the spirit is SO strong, and I am in love with this town! It is exactly what I wanted.

It is so neat to see Heavenly Father's hand in my life! A year ago I was dead set on attending SUU. I was 100% sure that I would stay at SUU all four years and I never imagined any other possibilities. Eleven days before I was supposed to start school at SUU everything fell through. It really was not what Heavenly Father had in mind. I had been set on what I wanted and not what He wanted. It was a hard choice to stay in Vegas, but I think it was part of His plan. After attending UNLV for one semester I was ready to leave (lol). I needed to try living away from my family and that University was so focused on the world. During my second semester I knew it was time to apply somewhere else. BYU Idaho seemed like the right place. It was amazing how quickly everything happened. I applied, got accepted, got housing, got excited, GOT HERE! Heavenly Father will guide our lives if we will just be clay in His hands. I am so grateful that I have been blessed to be here!

Oh, about my roommates...I have four: Georgie, Katie, Crystal, and Betsy. They have opened their arms and made me feel like family. On Sunday my family left to go back to Las Vegas. My dad came to my ward to take the sacrament, but left right after that. I felt so scared, so alone. I fought tears back so hard, but it was no use so I ended up trying to hide my face. Then my awesome roommate Crystal saw that I was crying and she put her arm around me and gave me a hug! That was such an amazing blessing! I have not cried since that moment because all my roommates are that way! They are so fun loving and we have grown together spiritually just through these four days! We decided to start having apartment prayer which is such a neat experience! I love these girls!

I hope all is well with everyone!

Monday, May 26, 2008


Time passes so very quickly. I can not believe I only have four days left until I leave for Idaho! I am extremely excited and thoroughly optimistic about this new adventure!

This past week has been a fun one! I have been getting everything together and I am just taking care of all the finishing touches to be set to move. It is so great that I am finally going to get away from Las Vegas. I am going to miss my family and friends, but something that I have learned is that the people you always want near you won't ever really be too far away. My family will always be there for me and my closest friends are not going anywhere. It means a lot to me.

Something has been weighing heavily on my mind lately though...its Frankie. He really became my best friend. Even though it seems like we're always fighting and angry at each other, he is a huge support. I have been really glad to have him around. I am pretty positive that these next eight weeks are going to change a lot for Frankie and I. I don't want it to change, but we both are entering the phase of our lives where we are taking the leap from childhood to adulthood. Hopefully we can come out of the BIG CHANGE as great friends with good memories.

My Mom is so amazing! I just need to say that! She is my soul sista'! Seriously, I bet her and I were best friends in Heaven but because my mom was more advanced than I am...God decided to make her my mom on Earth! What a woman! Let me tell you....she means so much to me. I am so grateful for her and all the fun we have together. I want to be just like her! AND I really want to take her to Idaho with me. I would love to have her there. To laugh with me, cry with me, just to be my closest friend! I love her!

I think this blog was just me rambling about leaving! It has come so fast and I am very grateful for the opportunity to attend BYU-I! It is going to be great...I'll keep you posted!

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Rexburg and Jacson Hole

I'm in Rexburg right now with my Mom and Sydnee. It is so exciting to be here. It is everything I expected and so much more. It's a beautiful, small town full of personality! The first thing you see as soon as you get off the freeway is the Rexburg, ID Temple sitting on the hill! It is an amazing view! The weather is perfect! But, I know that it will be the complete opposite when I come back for Winter semester in January!

Yesterday, May 17th, we took a trip to Jackson Hole, Wyoming. It was only a 2 hour drive and to our surprise there was SNOW EVERYWHERE! The mountains were covered in a cool white blanket and at some points it must have been 20 feet deep....I really started to question if coming to school here would be the best choice for me (lol).

Once we got into Jackson Hole the weather was nice. It was in the mid 70's just like in Rexburg. I just could not believe that last week in Las Vegas I had been swimming and last week in Wyoming they had snow fall. We had so much fun exploring Jackson Hole. I found out that if you want to be a model citizen there you must own two things: 1- a bike 2- a jeep (lol).
We happen to arrive in Jackson Hole during their annual Elk Fest. Apparently, Elk antlers are a big deal in this weird little town. The picture is of Sydnee and me standing under one of their 4 arches made from Elk Antlers. Right as we were walking through the arch there was an auction going on! Can you guess what they were auctioning got it! You could be the lucky owner of a beautiful pair of Elk antlers for the small price of $10!

Coming here has really brought me into reality. I have wanted to leave Las Vegas for the past year and a half...BUT now that it is actually happening it is pretty nerve racking! I am coming to a new place, ALL ALONE. I do not have any clue how to get around this town - for a while I doubted there was a grocery store(haha). It feels really overwhelming at times. But, it is time for this new part of my life. I need this.

It is going to be great!

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Out of Here

I leave for BYU-Idaho pretty soon and I am very VERY excited! My mom, sydnee and I are taking a trip up there this weekend just to check it out. I never thought that I would be heading to IDAHO aka the coldest place on Earth! But, I have learned the valuable lesson that Heavenly Father doesn't always want what we want...I have come to realize that He has a "more excellent way." (Ether 12:11) I am so grateful that His hand has been in my life thus far and I can not wait to see where this new adventure will take me!